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Thursday, 26 June 2008
God, what can I say...?
Mood:
 spacey
Now Playing: Forgotten, Breaking The Habit, and Leave Out The Rest by Linkin' Park
Man, it's been a weird few years since I posted on this thing. I haven't been able to get online due to lack of funds for several years. I have become a Licensed Massage Therapist in the state in which I live, after going to school for a year and a half to get my license. Mostly this blog will be a place for my thoughts and stuff I don't mind being out there in cyberspace, but don't really expect anything in the way of personal stuff, beyond the occasional glimse or two. I currently don't have a girlfriend, as I broke up with one, had another that I broke it off with shortly after the first relationship, and I haven't had another really big relationship since. I haven't really been writing much either, mainly due to studying and preparing. I recently got my national certification for my job, so that helps. I recently got a request to work on an italian model while she's in town. Apparently my reputation is getting out even in Italy, because her massage therapist there asked me if I'd take her on as a client. I haven't really decided yet. Got to talk to my boss and see if he'll change my schedule to work around her's. Anyways, that's all that's really exciting going on in this poor boy's life right now.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 12:43 AM CDT
Sunday, 18 April 2004
Well, nothing new happening, really....
Not a whole lot going on right now. Got into a bit of an arguement with someone very close to me, and she rather upset that I said what I did. She tries to hide it, but she's a little freaked out. I'm going to give her some space. I haven't really had much time to sit down and get much done on my story. I wrote the introduction, and the first chapter. I haven't had a chance to work on Chapter 2. But, I'm making some small progress.
I'm writing it for my own sake, but I'm also doing it for the two most important people in my life at this point. They can make or break me, as far as my life goes. Anywho, I'm not going to worry about it. That's another day's headache.
Oh, and I may actually take this silly thing and use it for something useful. If you go to
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 4:57 AM CDT
Friday, 16 April 2004
Still not much going on...
Like the title says, there's not too much going on. I'm working on a fiction based off Tibetian legends as well as some other things. It's called "A Mystic's Journal." which is the reason I chose the name Fused Mystic. :? That name comes into play later in the story, which is why I use it as a screen name. Vain, I know, but I like it. I also learned some new things, which will be influencing my posts from now on. I'm learning the character maps, which can be used for things, like that strange little :p thing above. Anyways, have fun, and take care. I'll probably post the story up here, but also into either Fanfiction.net, or fictionpress.com. I haven't really decided. But, I'm sure I'll put it up here.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 3:07 PM CDT
Sunday, 11 April 2004
Nothing really going on...
I just thought I'd update. My girlfriend's cousin just came in for Easter, and she's been spending time with her before she goes back to California. But, that's not really relavant. Nothing's really been going on with me, thus the lack of updates.
Current feeling: Tired, and worried....what else is new?
Current cd: Meteora by Linkin' Park.
But, that just fits how I feel. I'm tired of almost everything, really. But, I can't let myself die inside now. Too many things I have to do before I can allow that to happen.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 3:09 PM CDT
Monday, 5 April 2004
Basically ignore my last entry...
I've pretty much went back to worrying. But, I'm trying to keep my mind occupied so I will not. Worry leads to me to my anger, which isn't really a place I want to go right now. I haven't been getting a whole lot of sleep as of late. 5 hours in the last week. I've been so concerned about someone very important to me, that I've become completely wiped out. Then, when I finally do get some sleep, this person messages me. And, as tired as I was, and still am, I didn't know until now. God, that just...Well, I'm trying not to worry about it. I really am.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 10:12 AM CDT
Saturday, 3 April 2004
Well, the stress is off.... But, there's some problem I've got to work on now...
Aww, isn't it the way of the world that when you get one thing straightened out, another thing pops up? But, this is something I've got to do on my own. I've got to get this thing down, before I go any farther. I'll comment more later. For now, Peace be with you.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 2:50 PM CST
Friday, 2 April 2004
Well, some things are resolved now... Maybe I'll get the rest done soon...
Well, I'm in a much better mood. Half of my light called me, and the other half is either home now, or will be tomorrow. So, I'm in a much better mood. But, I'm worried about a friend of mine. He's a good guy, but he sometimes worries me. But, I know he'll be alright now. So, all this stress recently among other things has pushed me towards exaustion. I think I could sleep for a week, if it didn't keep me away from my light. Now, maybe I can focus on the matter at hand... That would be good.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 10:43 PM CST
Thursday, 1 April 2004
I dub thee Unforgiven...
The song Unforgiven just seems to fit my mood. I'm so tired to trying. I know who and what I am, but that doesn't help against those who seek to run roughshed over you, now does it? That's what this song is about, as far as I'm concerned. There's two lights in my life right now, and that's all that's really keeping me going right now. You can't trust anyone, because those you trust tell those who you don't want to know exactly what you don't want known. I'm afraid you can only trust those who you know better than family, because even family will stab you in the back. It's truely time for what is supposed to happen to do so. Three, possibly four people in my life at this point I can trust, and only one I can say anything to. The other two or three, I'm afraid to say too much all at once.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 11:11 PM CST
Monday, 29 March 2004
Carry On My Wayward Son...
The title of this song by Kansas says just about everything about my mood. The chorus says everything about how I feel. The entire song says it all, really. I'll put it up here.
Carry On My Wayward Son
Carry on my wayward son
for there'll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest.
Don't you cry no more
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion.
I was soaring ever higher
but I flew too high
Though my eyes could
see I was still a blind man.
Though my mind could think I was still a madman.
I hear the voices when I,m dreaming
I can hear them say
Carry on my wayward son
for there'll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest.
Don't you cry no more
Masquerading as a man with a reason
my charade is the event of the season.
And if I claim to be a wise man
that surely means that I don't know.
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean.
I set a course for winds of fortune
but I hear the voices say
Carry on my wayward son
for there'll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest.
Don't you cry no more
Carry on, you will always remember.
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor.
Now your life's no longer empty.
Surely Heaven waits for you.
That's how I feel. The first verse is my past to my present. The chorus is the promise of what will be. The second verse is my present. The third verse is my future. The end, is what awaits me at the end. Indeed, a very uplifting song. But, you see, every song in the world has a different meaning for us all. Sometimes, it's depressing, others, it's hopeful. It all depends on how you look at it.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 4:32 PM CST
Saturday, 27 March 2004
Well, if you're reading this, then you know who the Fused Mystic is...
Yes, I am the Fused Mystic! And, I am Anhan! Bwahahahahahaha! [coughs for about three minitues afterwards] *ahem* Now, that I've got this little bit off my chest, I guess I can tell you who read this what's been going on in my life. I've been helping a nice family upstairs of me (I live in an apartment) move. God, I'm sore, and very tired. But, since I'm an innsomniac, that helps put me to sleep. Too bad it's sunny outside... Anywho, I've been worried about someone very close to me, as well as another that is very close. But, some things are beginning to make sense to me, so I may not have to worry about them, or my future very much longer. Anyways, I guess I'll sign off for now. G'day.
Posted by anhantwomoons
at 12:49 PM CST
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